All the time man, believe me. I used to think I was such a good player, and it's almost like all these amazing ESports Twitch watching players have come out the woodwork suddenly and I'm just getting dominated all the time. I've been playing FIFA for around 15 years and never had a negative win/loss ratio, yet I've now got 200 wins, 245 losses, and every single game I go into now I just know I'm gonna lose the moment somebody does a drag back. It's not that I can't do any skill moves, it's just that I don't seem to have the motivation or will to spam them like I did when I was younger, and whenever I see somebody spamming skill moves I know they've clearly got more of a motivation than me to win.

I feel like I've lost my ability suddenly this year that I worked on for 15 years, and even though it's just FIFA it's making me think up all kinds of negative sh*t about myself. Ended up thinking I was getting old and this was just the start of me losing my ability in OTHER stuff as well, even though I'm only 31. It's not a nice thing to happen to you when you used to win the majority of games you played, and nowadays go into EVERY game thinking you're gonna lose. I never used to be like that. I used to have so much confidence in my ability, and even believed that I could come back from something like 5-0 down (and did often), but nowadays even if I go 1-0 down my head drops and I just don't believe in myself enough to score. Maybe I'm f*cked in the head, who knows.